Okay, so college is here, and not gonna lie-- its a little overwhelming and a lot to take in all at one time. Everyone wants to get involved so fast and meet so many new people. But the process is normal, and everyone has to get used to it. We moved in yesterday, and our room looks amazing thanks to Kaylee (my awesome roommate) and her mom. It took most of the day, but it was definitely worth it! The first night was amazing, and we met a ton of new people! I am not extraverted, so this took a lot out of me. I try to push myself to be extraverted, but one of my sweet friends reminded me that I don't have to change who I am because Jesus already loves me for who I am. Ironic thing (but really a God thing) is that NPCC IO just put out a new song called "BY MY SIDE" and I am in love with the song. My favorite part of the song is:
It's time for letting go Im not in control Jesus you are Jesus you are and wow. Just right there. Let that soak in because I had to let that soak in many times today. Everything kind of hit me today of that this a new chapter of my life. Now I am not leaving the people from my last chapter-- this is just a new chapter with new experiences and challenges. Listening to BY MY SIDE today just reminds me that Jesus is always by my side no matter where I am, no matter what challenges I am walking through, and definitely supporting me throughout the way. I am not in control of the situations before me, and I cannot change the phase of life I am in-- so instead I will decide to put my trust in Jesus and let Him take control. Because when the control is in my hands, I make a complete mess of things, but giving it to Jesus allows Him to make everything perfect in His time. But let's be real for a minute. You know when you know something and say it but don't actually fully believe it? Well yeah, you can find me in that boat today. It isn't that I am not trusting Jesus with everything, because I am-- but it is the letting go of control part. I am not good at change... AT ALL. I like everything and everyone to stay the same. But throughout high school, I've had to learn based on experiences that YOUR FAITH DOES NOT GROW IN YOUR COMFORT ZONE. So I want to set out of my comfort zone and meet new people and just love others well. So Jesus... will you lead me and use me to bring people to you? Use me wherever you need me, and Lord please push me out of my comfort zone to grow deeper in my faith, Thank you for what I have and what you have provided. You are Lord of all, and I know that you are in control.
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